I haven't told ANYONE until last night.
The reaction I got when I shared my personal information was not what I expected or particularly liked.
I didn't tell anyone about my dad being out of work because I didn't want the pity. I don't like being pity because it makes me feel inferior.
So when I tell about my family's situation, I get the response (not spoken) "you probably just want pity, but I am not going to give any emotion to you."
I say family situation, because it is exactly that, a family issue. It's not a roommate issue, nor a work issue. So I keep it within my family, but the response I got when I made it somewhat of a roommate issue upset me.
I know that people have their own issues, BELIEVE ME! I know!
I didn't expect my roommates to go about talking about my issues without me knowing. I didn't expect some of my roommates to give me a blank stare as if to say, well what do you want me to say?, when I told them. I didn't expect to have one roommate bite back at me that she had that same problem in her family.
Unemployment is becoming more and more prevalent. It is not a shock anymore to see many people, friends and family deal with that problem.
Although I don't expect pity. I don't want pity. But there is a difference between pity and compassion. I didn't feel as if anyone showed compassion to me when I told them.
But I shouldn't expect it. I also shouldn't expect to be the only one with the problem.
I was at work and I was listening to my IPOD on shuffle. I came across this song.
I am a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason". I know that there is some reason why my family has had to go through this trial multiple times. And every time a possible job source comes back to my dad saying no thank you, I just have to remember to have faith. Everything will be ok. I am not the only one.
