Being a Baby or Being Safe

So on Monday I began the official training for my half marathon. I had pushed past all the fears and doubts and now I was excited.

Ran 35 min on Monday- about 3 miles for me.
On Tuesday my left foot began to really hurt. It progressed into a severe pain in my foot so that walking became a dreaded action. I went running again, even with the pain and weird enough, my foot didn't hurt as much when I ran with it. But once I was walking, BANG. The pain returned. Then I had Zumba wednesday morning.  Dancing with it felt as if I didn't even have an injury.
So now I'm thinking to myself that something is off.
I research different foot injuries and even call my brother to see if he has any idea. (I mean, he knows sports so he must know about sports injuries.....)
Nada.
So now I am scared.
I'm scared that I have really hurt myself.
I'm scared that I have made this goal and told the whole world about it and now I can't do it.
I'm scared that this will make me give up more easily when and if I decide to start back up.
I'm scared that I am just being a baby about this.... I mean that is nothing new.

But then there is McAllister (aka Callie)
I posted on my ward page asking if anyone had an ace bandage that I could use for my foot.
Callie showed up with a bag full of supplies.
She sat down on the couch and asked what's wrong.

I honestly wanted to just start crying and tell her all my fears, but i didn't. I told her where it hurt and she gently felt and probed. Then she guided my foot into the brace explaining how to wrap it and maybe an ace bandage would help... She soothed and helped me understand that I can start my training back up just as easily in a week and still be ready. She said to not push myself and really give my body the chance to run 13.1 miles.

It's not being a baby when you hurt yourself and you have to let go of some of your expectations. In fact, it shows that you are an even more disciplined person because you can say yes AND no.

So if any of you out there have been called a baby, or you yourself have called someone a baby, maybe take a step back and consider how the person is feeling.
scared, mad, confused, jealous
we all act out of emotion.

So my training will resume in a week.
see you then.