Everything points to God

Whoa, can you believe it is already MARCH! What happened? I feel like time is just flying by without even bothering to say hi!

Last week was crazy and now this week is even crazier. I truly believe that BYU is trying to drive me insane with the amount of things I need to do. And then on top of it, social life is sinking below par.

Last night I didn't fall asleep til 2am because of some issues I am having with a roommate. It has gotten to the point where this person doesn't talk to me  AT ALL. I try to do nice things and talk, but it doesn't do anything to affect their disposition towards me. Last night I prayed so hard to know what to do. I was lost in a sea of sarcastic remarks and hurtful gossip.

I texted my mom in a desperate tone, begging her for a way to make this easier.

This was her response:

"I asked dad. He said it will be hard but IGNORE her. He added it will be hard for her to continue if you don't react in any way. I think he might be right, but it will take toughness on your part. Your ears will need to become deaf to anything she may say. Pretend that an evil spirit has invaded her body. Would you give the adversary's minions your attention or care what he said? haha I know it's hard but stay busy... keep good company... continue to pray. She's just trying to pull you down to her level and see if she can get you to behave badly. She CANNOT hurt you beyond what you allow. Any wounds you may incur... the Savior will heal."

Isn't that brilliant?

I met with my Bishop to renew my temple recommend and found myself opening up to him about everything I have been dealing with. He had no idea and all he said was "I'm sorry that you have to go through that. No one should have to deal with that. You will be blessed for your desire to make things better."

I don't hate this person. In fact, I love her. She is a wonderful person with a fun personality. I am just not a fan of the way she treats other people and her attitude about certain things. It's sad because she thinks I hate her and in return she treats me poorly.

I woke up this morning with a heavy heart because I didn't know what to do. I honestly still don't know what to do.

Then I was at work today and something wonderful happened. My BEST friend texted me asking to meet up so she can give me a cookie. I haven't talked to her since before Christmas. I left work and met with her and she sprinted down the hall to hug me. It was one of the GREATEST feelings in the world. To feel the love of someone so unconditionally and wholly is the most comforting and hope-filled moments ever.

She was exactly what I needed in that moment. "keep good company"- she is the greatest company anyone could have.

There are moments in my life when I KNOW without any doubt that God is there watching over me. He knows that this isn't easy. He understands my struggles and pain as I try to make it through the rest of the semester. He feels my heart weakening from the constant trying and attacking of the adversary. He knows that I am trying my best, that I have the best of intentions.

He sends people or experiences into my life to lift me, to help me find my way back to Him and realize that he is the only one that I care about. Sometimes I think he gave me this CRAZY week to help me follow the advice of my mom and "keep busy".

I am nervous about the rest of the day, but I know that the Lord loves and cares for all of His children. I know He cares about me and wants me to be the best that I can be. I know that He is my biggest advocate to do what is right and push past the temptations to partake in the offerings of the adversary.