I went to my cousins house last night for FHE and had a blast make Candy Trains. Because who makes gingerbread houses anymore.
(observe picture below of my "train wreck")
Pretty legit, right?
And yes, the snowmen have fallen over the railroad track, awaiting their death. Somewhat morbid, I know.
Anyway, on my drive home, I turned off my music and listened to the heater blow warm air on my face and hands. I allowed my thoughts and feelings to come to the front of my mind.
I thought about how blessed I am.
I thought about how scared I am for finals.
I thought about Matt and Greta and their adorable baby boy, who will be arriving in this world SOON!
I thought about my sister and her wonderful life and how much I miss her.
I thought about my mom. I LOVE HER.
I thought about my inadequacies and my strengths.
I thought about my friends.
I thought about the difficulties and hardships I am facing.
It is so easy to go from happy and wholesome thoughts, to hard and depressing thoughts. I got trapped in an array of emotions that caused me to feel as though I was less than the dust of the Earth. I started to feel that the experiences I am going through are not FAIR.
Why am I the one stuck with hard roommates year after year? Why do I have to be the one who is verbally attacked and talked about behind my back? What have I done that has caused this to happen to me?
Look at all I've done. I've been so good lately and yet, I am still suffering.
Then today, at work, I found this glorious quote.
The Atonement of Jesus Christ is the precise power that we need to overcome our natural man tendencies. We may feel that the world is against us and we are the target of people's jokes. We may feel bullied and unloved. That is not fair.
The Atonement takes away all those feelings of "fair" and "unfair". The Atonement fill us with all those happy feelings that we are missing.
When I read this, I was filled with LOVE because that is what I needed. I needed to feel LOVED by someone. I was seeking the love from the people around me and I wasn't getting it. I needed to go to the one and only person who understands what I am going through and can perfectly love me in the exact way I need.
What can we fear, when filled with such love.
I know that the Lord is there is fill us with the kind of love and happiness that we need. I know that when we go to Him, we will find the strongest and most powerful love we can ever imagine.
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