A new Job, Temperature, and Focus

Today is December 4th, 2013.

I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that it is going to be 2014 in less than 30 days.
So many changes have been happening and are going to happen.


I just started a new job. I literally have no idea what I am doing. I think it will be a challenge for me to understand what I have to do. The people seem nice and willing to work with me and help me out, but I know how it can sometimes be a pain in the butt to train a newbie. You have to make sure they know and understand what they are doing before you can go back to what you do. It can be annoying. It can be frustrating. It takes a crapload of patience. I get it. And I hate it. I hate being the newbie. I hate not knowing anything. I hate when they explain something to me and I have NO IDEA what they just said.
But I am unbelievably, eternally grateful for this opportunity. This job provides me with something that I have needed for a very long time.

"Don't be afraid of not knowing."

I cannot begin to describe to you how many people have posted about the snow and the cold and how they either hate it or they love it, or maybe even both. It is so annoying, but yet here I am posting about how I dislike the snow and the cold, but in some what I love it as well.

I had to walk to plasma on Tuesday when the snow first began, and it seemed as though it would never stop. I thought I would go run, so I wore workout clothes, but to my extreme dislike, the snow was slippery and icy and if I ran, I would have fallen dozen of times. I was covered in snow when I got to the center and tried to warm up, but tennis shoes are made to have holes in them and my feet never seemed to regain their feeling. But nonetheless, I braved the storm, knowing that I would get home soon.

That sounded so deep and applicable to more than just that moment.

We brave the storms everyday, whether they be addiction, depression, distractions, weaknesses, or even anger, we have to trust in the knowledge that we will get home soon, that "this too shall pass".

One thing that I have realized over and over again is the fact that I have to keep my eyes focused.
I need to remember that I am loved and cared for by so many.
I need to remember that I am blessed beyond compare.
I need to remember that if I do these things then I will be strengthened and blessed to be able to do more that I thought I could.